Okay, so a friend of mine (well, we dated for a little while a few years ago) came back into my life just recently. He had had to go away for a while but now we keep in close contact. The two of us broke up not because either of us wanted to but because he lived far away. I really liked him and it broke my heart when he had to go. Well he came to town to visit old friends yesterday and we met up for about an hour or so. And I couldn't even look him in the face for very long because every second I did made me want him so much. He's the most attractive guy I've ever met. And the nicest guy I've ever met. And had he not gone back home who knows where we would have ended up. But now I'm married and I love my husband very much. And I don't want to cheat on him or anything. It's just so hard to be sane right now when I'm so crazy about this other guy. What sucks even more is that I am not sure if this guy still likes me at all. Chances are he doesn't. In fact it's very high chances he doesn't. But I do still want to remain friends with this guy. But how on earth do I do that with the way I still feel about him? Ugh, I hate life. This is so stupid.